It has been almost six weeks since I have blogged. What has been going on in my world? My life has been amazingly special on just about every level. When I walked out of radiation two-a-days I didn’t want to go home. All I wanted to do is keep going forward. I jumped back into my life with both feet in. I have focused on staying present in the moment and living each moment to the fullest. Of course, my body hasn’t necessarily been able to follow that lead, but I am getting there.
What I continue to realize is how lucky and fortunate I really am. My journey with breast cancer has taught me a lot. I see the world differently. And I respond to the world differently.
I also realize this journey is far from over. Cancer is not something you get past in life. As I sat with a dear friend and looked at cancer through her eyes I realized cancer will always be a part of me. It will be that piece that will bind me to others, bring tears to my eyes with them, and will ultimately be yet another piece of the fabric of my life.
I have spent a great deal of time reading about recovery and living a healthy life after breast cancer. It has been insightful and even a little bit humorous. In a nutshell I am already on the right path. My pescatarian lifestyle and focus on clean daily living both fit the bill. I am anxious to put my new running shoes on. Yes, they are pink.
This week and next I have the opportunity to reconnect with Dr. Caring and my radiology crew. My body is healing and my energy is coming back day by day. A good friend reminded me that I am now on the other side of cancer. You know, the side where you think about cancer coming back. Well, I can’t say a day goes by that I don’t think about it, but what I can say is that I am not worried. What I think is that time is precious and you need to live each moment. Seeing the doctors again will be such a great moment…six weeks.
I know, why start out my blog entry with a picture of my classroom? It is my slice of heaven. I didn’t have the opportunity to start my year in the Diner, but I can tell you I am living my days to the fullest there. Teaching is a true treasure and I will never lose focus of that.
All I really know is that at 51 I am living each moment as open and present as I ever have. I feel fortunate and very happy. I have an incredible life, family, friends, career, students, and outlook. In life it just doesn’t get any better than this.
Journey 2 will continue. And each step I will learn another layer. These past six weeks have taught me a lot. I am confident the next six will do the same.
Hugs to all. Life is good, very good. 💗